You know how there are ups and downs in life? I find myself in a down--I'm not down, just in the 'down' phase of things right now. You see, my darling dad is dying.
And it totally sucks.
The last 6 weeks or so have been some of the most trying of my adult life. This situation is beyond my control to influence, but I do have one choice: that is how I act right here, right now.
One of the blogs I follow is called Three Beautiful Things. If you haven't checked it out, it is filled with small moments of gratitude, that, at first glance seem insignificant and unimportant, but when examined with sincerity and and open heart, are actual miracles. Since I am a firm believer that imitation is the sincerest form of flattery, I am going to pay tribute to the author today and share with you a few things I am grateful for today.
And these don't necessarily have to do with my dad's inevitable passing, (which I'm sure I'll write more of later...or not...) but just three beautiful things I am grateful for that make today seem a little lighter and a little brighter.
Three Beautiful Things: Saying Goodbye, Small Stones and Thank You.
One: A chance to say goodbye. I have had a chance to say goodbye. I'm acutely aware that there countless numbers of people who never get the chance to say goodbye. I have. And my gratitude for this one, simple thing, fills my heart with such loving kindness to the Divine that even for a blather-er like me, there just aren't enough words.
Two: Small Stones. I am a funny girl, with square teeth. I have always written. Always. Usually it was just funny perspectives on motherhood, student-hood, teenage-hood, childhood--you get the idea. Anyway, I write poetry too--off and on--(what writer doesn't?) but have always considered myself 'the funny girl' who writes funny things and people like to read them because they are funny. Well, dear readers, I reached outside myself and submitted one of my small stones to be published and well....it is! This is one small step for writer-kind, and one gigantic leap for Square Toothed Funny Girls everywhere!!
Three: Thank You. On a long car ride home this weekend, I received a phone call (from someone whom I just adore,) thanking me for something I was doing for them. It was said with such sincerity, kindness and tenderness that the weight of love behind his words flew to me in an instant.
Those are my three beautiful things today.
What are yours?