I really enjoy my life.
I'm not saying it is perfect, 'cause babycakes, it is faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar from.
I'm as broken, messed up, worried, freaked out, addicted, sad, and sorry as the next person. I've got my problems just as you do.
....I really enjoy my life.
When I was just starting out my adult-hood I had a fabulous mentor-mother named Jackie. Jackie sucked each day dry of joy. She lived big. She loved big. She taught me not to regret, worry, to let go and that life is good.
Her daughter happens to be my dear friend, Clover.
Clover gives me the gift of wisdom and friendship and constantly shows the way. She continues to teach me just as her darling mom did all those years ago.
Jackie gave me a book called Living A Beautiful Life by Alexandra Stoddard. In it she writes, "The only life worth living is the one we take responsibility for choosing."
The frame of mind with which we engage our daily living is a choice. We can engage living with fear, anger, or drudgery, or we can choose to engage it in a spirit of peace, fulfillment and true enjoyment.
Of course, living is just hard sometimes, and we may need the help of a doctor or a health professional to guide us through. But ultimately, when we are ready, the choice to return to wholeness is ours alone. This deliberate choice happens on the most individual and personal level and usually (but not always) during a stressful emotional challenge.
It's easy to feel good when things are going well. Enjoying life feels like the windows of our soul are welcoming in a bright and brilliant Spring. Conversely, it often feels impossible to suck the marrow of joy when the world is crashing down around us.
Two years ago I lost my dad. Six months ago, Mountain Man lost his job. Some other hard stuff happened in between, and then six weeks ago we moved to an unknown land where I still don't know a soul. Some days, joy seems like an elusive stranger.
And yet...underneath the waves of sorrow or sadness, is joy. I'm able to connect to it by enjoying the prosaic moments that make up daily living. The fragrance of the blooming maple trees, the ever changing Portland sky, sunlight (when it comes), rain (which I don't have to shovel!) lemons, the laughter of a friend over the phone last night, texts from a fellow blogger and real life friend just shootin' the breeze--This is where joy resides.
For me, learning to enjoy living each day fully gives me a foundation of joy--a reserve, if you will--so when the challenges come, (and they always do) I am able to be gentle with myself when my emotions are blown about by the winds of change. I can center myself in the joy found in these seemingly small things so I can continue to survive and eventually thrive.
So yes, life is hard.
AND life is good.
Enjoying my daily life brings me joy. What brings you joy?
"What you think and do now builds. Value this moment. Be patient. Smile often. Love the process of living each moment fully. What we do today, right now, will have an accumulated effect on all our tomorrows." ~Alexandra Stoddard